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5250f-95802b-2babsurd_res2batomicgreymon2bemo2bemo_pie2bpie2bpinkamena_diane_pie2bpinkie2btransparent Hi everyone. I just wanted to post about the last few weeks. I have been feeling pretty sick, tired, down and just generally not that good. I don’t even think I can write that well, around a headache I currently have. Around this time of year, I end up hurting. I know I work fast food, and when the kids start school, and the older kids start college, that it’s going to be a busy time for us. But I don’t know. I feel like this year is hitting me harder than normal.

My body aches have been pretty extreme this year, my headaches come more often. I feel like I need to take better care of myself, but just don’t have the energy or motivation.

But in the end, I suppose it is our outlook that matters And I won’t end this as a whine session. I am grateful for my friends and family. I am grateful that my job is allowing me to be able to pay for a place to live, kinda, and for food to eat and clothes to wear. I am grateful for those of who take time out of their busy lives to read this blog. I am grateful for books. I am most of all grateful for my heavenly Father, without whom I would not even be here.

I am even grateful for my pain and suffering because it is what does the most shaping of a person’s character. And I hope that it will continue to act as a lash to finding a job where I would be a better fit, and could better use the talents God has given me. And I will keep working on this blog, and adding content, no matter how I feel. The post may continue to come in spirts, but at least that’s better than nothing, right?

 

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Update. Again.

Well, I did it again. I jumped projects during my Camp Nanowrimo month. Again. And I had just tackled it in a major way.

Let me set the stage. I have gotten interested in a series from Josh Scorcher, really two of them. Both of the series are really good, by the way. They both are D&D campaigns and both the stories and the characters in them are really interesting. And it is so much fun listening to the interplay between the people as they play out the games. And I have some real favorite characters in each of them.

I won’t give away any spoilers. But I was playing with the idea of novelizing one of the streams for a few installations for a week or so now. My other projects suffered because of it. But then something happened in one of the installations that pushed me to a real drive. I had a real fire under me today and had written/edited for the last several hours to get this segment right. I admit that I worry that this event, which I admit was devastatingly sad, got me to get so focused on this is really troubling. But I’ll admit that one of the first rules of writing is that if it makes you feel the emotions you are trying to write, then your readers will feel them too.

Of course, that might also be because of the wonderful roleplaying ability of the various players who are portraying the characters.

Here is a link to that one.

 

Here is the link for the start of the other campaign, which is wonderful.

So anyway, This is what I have to report. I am working on a new project, but I won’t completely shelf the others. Even though one I gave away, and regretted afterward since I really don’t care for it when I looked at it afterward. Still, he said it was interesting, so I take hope that he had at least been slightly amused by it.

 

And until I see you again, take care, and keep creating!

Confession

I have a confession to make. I almost gave up on this blog.

That’s right. I came close to chucking it and walking away. And I’m still not sure if sticking with it is a good move or not.

See, here is the deal. Nothing I wrote seemed very good. Even what I ended up giving away was not my best and I knew it. I have tons of ideas still, but I just could not bring them to fruition in a way that I was happy with at all. And if you know me in real time, you know I do not have very much stick-to-itiveness. I give up at the first sign of difficulty. It’s my laziness coupled with perfectionism, I think. try figuring out how that is possible.

Still, I will stick with this for a bit yet. And I hope those who find my little corner of the internet is going to be amused by my continued attempts to mangle the English language. 😛

When a former post steps on your own toes…

I was looking for a particular post, hoping to inspire myself. And, well, I found this. I have a confession. I have been missing church a lot. And at first, it was all totally legit. I was often sick and worn out from work. And Sundays are still a huge struggle. But Wednesdays are now more of skipping out of a habit than the other reasons. And I am ashamed of myself.

I need to get off my lazy flank and start going again. Because, as a number of my friends told me, repentance is not feeling bad for what I am doing wrong, it is admitting to them and striving to make them right again. To correct what you are, let’s call it what it really is, sinning in and turn it around.
NOw I won’t say that you got to start being perfect again or give up. That is also not what repentance is about. But it is making the effort. And keep making the effort until the sin no longer has any power over you. And I am going to start making an effort with this post. As my confession.

The post that I posted earlier is below this. With an MLP vid to boot. ^_^

 

What happens when you isolate yourself from the Church? It doesn’t end well….Sin and strange ideas thrive with too much isolation and resentment….🤪 Sometimes the craziest ideas take root when you think you are your best spiritual self, and you have no idea. And sometimes that little bit of resentment you have against a brother or sister turns into something huge and monstrous.
Or if you visit a friend who been missing from Church for a while and see them…..well, struggling. The reaction…it is so real!😱
Have the courage to confront sin head on. And the one that is being disciplined🤔, have the humility to listen and take the advice…and sometimes the shove back to sanity…..to heart!💖

 

Or am I the only one that thinks this?

 

Patreon!

Well, I wrote this and posted it on facebook. So here I am posting it here AND posting it on facebook again!

I started a Patreon! Woo Hoo! I have been bouncing between the want to jump in there and do it, and wondering just why I would do this? I mean do I even have anything worth sharing? Would I be able to get anyone interested in what I have to say?

Part of me wants to say no. But that part is the part of me that would delete every word I ever wrote, crumble every drawing I ever make, and throw my crafts away. And just forget about learning any skills. What skills? That part of me would easily tell me I have no learning ability and no skills. It is a huge battle sometimes just to get out of bed, smile or otherwise.

But thankfully that is not all me. There is another part of me that gets excited when the muse whispers in my ear. Who wants to dive in a new project the way that Scrooge dives in a money safe. This far more child-like free spirit of a sprite would run to everyone she loves and who loves her and held out her work with a wistful gaze and a charming smile. “Is it good?” She would ask. “I made it for you!”

Now my more critical side is vital. Without him, I would probably create junk and think it good. But without the other side to show me my potential, not to mention the friends I have to remind me that I am beloved and have talent, then I would never create a thing. And do you think I would keep posting on my blog? Fat chance! I mean, no offense to those who do read my blog, but I don’t think I get nearly the numbers that would keep me going if I just in it for fame or cash.

This blog is like my art and fanfiction. It is an act of love. And I will continue to type away because I want others to see what I am passionate about. And to know that they are worth it too. I wouldn’t want to share with you unless I feel that you as readers are totally worth the effort to connect with. And while I do want a larger readership, I am very much grateful for the ones that I got.

Now how about posting more? Ehhhh…….working on it. 😉

An example of my way of learning

I thought I would share this to give you some idea of how I learn and think. To give you a taste of my chaos, as it were.
These are notes I made from an online video, a German class that was online, and an online video on writing. Yeah, it is pretty all over the place. But the older I get, the more I realize that I am this way. And to make myself more logical would be a huge disservice to how I really learn.

I almost deleted this as soon as I put it up because it felt silly. But I pushed through. I hope you enjoy reading my notes.

 

What are the differences between the rich and the poor?

The rich pay themselves first. The Godly pays God first, and themselves second. But still, the main point remains.

The rich base their decisions on long-term rewards rather than instant gratification.

Rich people have several sources of income

rich people continually invest in themselves

the rich never blame but take full responsibility for their failures,

the rich don’t sleep in.

the rich have a clear vision or purpose

the rich make progress before entertainment

I recently started teaching myself, German. I found myself preferring to read out the words first, and sounding them out loud to myself. I took a few notes now and then to try to help build vocab in my head. But then I lost steam and started skipping. I know this was a mistake now.

Why did you decide to be a student, and what do you hope to gain from your studies?

Well, I love to learn for its own sake to begin with. And now that I am forty, I feel like I really need to dig in and learn as much as I can to better myself and be more employable and useful. I don’t have the energy of youth anymore so must use my mind to keep ahead. Besides learning is fun for its own sake. ^_^

write a million words, the very best you can. Then throw it away and turn your back on that work. Only then do you really began.

die banana ist gelp. the banana is yellow

The Louisa May Alcott Challenge

I ran into the challenge back in 2016. The main idea was that each person participating was to make a list of works by LMA, then make their best efforts to finish the list by the end of the month. Even though I am not sure that the challenge is being re-instated this year, still I will go on as though it is.

Here is my list.

Under the Lilacs

Shoes and Stockings: A Collection of Short Stories

A Garland For Girls

Work

If I finish all these, then I would start reading her journals.

 

That is all for now. Have a pleasant day. And let me know if you also want to take part.

 

Final Score for 24 hour readathon

Hello everyone!

So I am a little late, but I am wrapping up my readathon. And continuing the Sci-fi one. ^_^ Loving life. Reading is life.

So my score, as it were.

Ready Player One-I had read 138 pages so far. Also so far I am getting the hype. It is Amazing!! I had really hard time putting it down. It is the reason why I am 30ish minutes over the readathon. I love it. And will put a half-time review up soon.

 

Anne of Avonlea-About 140 or so pages read, and I want to finish in the next week or so, but it is not a priority with the sci-fi readathon going on. But it is a fun read, and I still love it.

 

Spock’s world-100 or so pages. I think the fact that it is in sections and not chapters hurt my pace some here. The others I read chapters before switching off. But with this one, I had to read a lot more when the book came up in its turn came up came up. Still, it is one of the Best Star Trek Novels I have read to date. And it will be part of the reading list for the current readathon. So no worries. ^_^

 

Under the Lilacs-73 pages. I had a hard time focusing on it. Especially after falling in love with Ready Player One. The others I had read a long time before. So it was easier to get into those three. But I really like Under the Lilacs so far. And will continue it for the LMA Challenge for this month. Whew, I got a lot of reading to do this month. And right now I am kind of in love with that.

 

Also, I listened to a number of audio books as I read, mostly on the side and mostly short stories. I have a hard time focusing unless there is some sound. And I found out years ago that I can somehow divide my attention when I am reading a book at the same time I am listening to an audiobook. Nobody tends to believe me when I say I can follow both at the same time. NOt all the details of course. But I can follow all the details of the written book and get the general idea of the audio. So here is the list of short stories listened to. ^_^

 

The Celebrated Jumping Frog of Calaveras County

The Tell-Tale Heart

The Masque of the Red Death

Aunt Kipp-LMA Challenge

A Country Christmas-LMA Challenge

An Occurrence at Owl Creek Bridge

The Necklace

The Scarlet Ibis

 

There ya go. All the material I had stuffed my brain within the last 24 hours. Thank you, and good night. I am exhausted.

SciFiJune Readathon

 

Oh, I was just reminded that Seasons of Reading Readathons started it’s SciFi Summer Readathon today! It started at midnight. How is that for serendipity? It goes until the fourteenth of the same month. There is a prize, but I think I’ll only participate to motivate myself to read more SciFi and Fantasy this month. 🙂

So my list for this one. By the by. Yes in readathons this long, you do sleep. 😛

Ready Player One

Changes-part of the Collegium Chronicles series

20,000 Leagues Under the Sea

As many Star Trek Novels as I can fit in! So far, that would be Spock’s World and The Tears of the Singers

So let’s see. Doing my own 24-hour readathon today. Plus starting #SciFiSummerJune. And I am seeing if I can start up the LMA Reading Challenge if one is not already going on that is. Think I gave myself enough to do bookwise this month?

Readathon update #2

Well, got another few chapters read collectively. and listened to another couple of short stories completely.

Then I…well crashed. I guess I’m too old to do one of these things with no sleep at all. Good to know for the next one. I’ll plan a 48 hour one instead. With sleep in between :). Still, I am pressing onward! I just got to catch up for lost time.

So, I’m going to read some more. And get a late breakfast.