It’s that time again!!

It is that time again. And that time is…NANOWRIMO!!! It’s nanowrimo! NANOWRIMO!!

I will be posting my daily efforts here, and total word count. So, let’s all have fun, and let’s get those words! For all the others aiming for those 50,000 words this month, good luck and let me know how you’re doing!!


Coffee and a Classic

Hello everyone. I have a special announcement or two for my readers.

One. I recently have started posting videos on youtube. Yes, little old me, in front of a camera. This is a big deal to me because I get very nervous when I’m in front of a camera. Part of the reason why I started was to get over that fear. And I think it is working. Yay!

And number two. I have just made one, unboxing my first ever book shipment subscription. It is called Coffee and a Classic, as you can see from the title. I had a real hoot making it. And want to focus my vlog on books and pony/brony news, so this fits right in. Please check it out on my channel, Apple Brush. Or check it out here. ^_^ And Happy Halloween!





Well, look out, I am back. Actually, I have been back since Sunday. And I had been sick since. But there was a convention in Virginia Beach and I had managed to go. It was so exciting. I learned a lot this go around, and hope that the next one I go to would be better planned out.

The lessons were good. The Fellowship was amazing! And we will have another in a couple of years, this time in Orlando, FL!


So quick question time. Have any of you been to a convention before? What kind was it? Did you enjoy it? Let me know about your experiences! And have a super blessed day!

Writing at 3 in the morning, kinda

Hey, want to know what I am doing right now? Well, technically I am writing this blog. But shortly before that I was searching out poems I have written, and re-writing some of them on the computer. Mostly because I feel lazy, and unmotivated and did not want to go to sleep without having accomplished something. Only…

Only I have already written over a thousand words today and exceeded my goal for the day in writing. Only I have done research on morning routines to try to figure out how I can be more productive. Only I had read over twenty pages of a book called scribbling in the Sand: Christ and Creativity by a Michael Card for my quiet time. Only I have written a post, scheduled for later today. So I hadn’t been completely unproductive. So I have to ask myself how much is enough?

This might be why I have so many peaks and valleys in my production. I just burn myself out doing too much, only to slump and do nothing for days. and then something or someone wakes me up and the cycle starts all over. And surprisingly this has less to do with caffeine than people might think it does.

Sometimes I wonder if I am bipolar. Sometimes I just wonder if this is my natural creative rhythm. Sometimes I wonder if I am just crazy. All I know for sure is I have a lot to learn, and I’m forty. I do not have a lot more time. Well, unless you think we are all immortal, and I honestly do, but we won’t be here in any event. But that topic is for another time.

I think I will try to sleep soon. I have a ton more poems to copy and I want to find a beta reader or four to see how much work they need to be either submitted piece-meal or turned into a book of poetry. I still don’t know. I’m only glad that I at least found evidence that years ago I once took part in a little dare to write a poem a day. I think I got to forty-five before the month was over. So clearly that was an overachiever month.

I wonder if I can ever learn to make over-achieving a habit until my current idea of ever-achieving becomes my idea of achieving. And more importantly, will it ever be healthy for me to do so?

Do you go through times like this? One moment you are doing all the things and pulling out your hair but kind of love it too? And the next week or month or year or whatever, you are in a rut, doing only what life demands of you?

If you think this is bad, that is because I will only run it through the old spellcheck once before publishing it. I doubt it will have anything earth-shattering in it anyway. But one, I just wanted to share what is going on in my head right now. And two, it seemed like a good writing exercise. Sort of like stream-of-consciousness or something modern like that.

Anyway, good night or good morning or whatever you prefer.


5250f-95802b-2babsurd_res2batomicgreymon2bemo2bemo_pie2bpie2bpinkamena_diane_pie2bpinkie2btransparent Hi everyone. I just wanted to post about the last few weeks. I have been feeling pretty sick, tired, down and just generally not that good. I don’t even think I can write that well, around a headache I currently have. Around this time of year, I end up hurting. I know I work fast food, and when the kids start school, and the older kids start college, that it’s going to be a busy time for us. But I don’t know. I feel like this year is hitting me harder than normal.

My body aches have been pretty extreme this year, my headaches come more often. I feel like I need to take better care of myself, but just don’t have the energy or motivation.

But in the end, I suppose it is our outlook that matters And I won’t end this as a whine session. I am grateful for my friends and family. I am grateful that my job is allowing me to be able to pay for a place to live, kinda, and for food to eat and clothes to wear. I am grateful for those of who take time out of their busy lives to read this blog. I am grateful for books. I am most of all grateful for my heavenly Father, without whom I would not even be here.

I am even grateful for my pain and suffering because it is what does the most shaping of a person’s character. And I hope that it will continue to act as a lash to finding a job where I would be a better fit, and could better use the talents God has given me. And I will keep working on this blog, and adding content, no matter how I feel. The post may continue to come in spirts, but at least that’s better than nothing, right?


Update. Again.

Well, I did it again. I jumped projects during my Camp Nanowrimo month. Again. And I had just tackled it in a major way.

Let me set the stage. I have gotten interested in a series from Josh Scorcher, really two of them. Both of the series are really good, by the way. They both are D&D campaigns and both the stories and the characters in them are really interesting. And it is so much fun listening to the interplay between the people as they play out the games. And I have some real favorite characters in each of them.

I won’t give away any spoilers. But I was playing with the idea of novelizing one of the streams for a few installations for a week or so now. My other projects suffered because of it. But then something happened in one of the installations that pushed me to a real drive. I had a real fire under me today and had written/edited for the last several hours to get this segment right. I admit that I worry that this event, which I admit was devastatingly sad, got me to get so focused on this is really troubling. But I’ll admit that one of the first rules of writing is that if it makes you feel the emotions you are trying to write, then your readers will feel them too.

Of course, that might also be because of the wonderful roleplaying ability of the various players who are portraying the characters.

Here is a link to that one.


Here is the link for the start of the other campaign, which is wonderful.

So anyway, This is what I have to report. I am working on a new project, but I won’t completely shelf the others. Even though one I gave away, and regretted afterward since I really don’t care for it when I looked at it afterward. Still, he said it was interesting, so I take hope that he had at least been slightly amused by it.


And until I see you again, take care, and keep creating!


I have a confession to make. I almost gave up on this blog.

That’s right. I came close to chucking it and walking away. And I’m still not sure if sticking with it is a good move or not.

See, here is the deal. Nothing I wrote seemed very good. Even what I ended up giving away was not my best and I knew it. I have tons of ideas still, but I just could not bring them to fruition in a way that I was happy with at all. And if you know me in real time, you know I do not have very much stick-to-itiveness. I give up at the first sign of difficulty. It’s my laziness coupled with perfectionism, I think. try figuring out how that is possible.

Still, I will stick with this for a bit yet. And I hope those who find my little corner of the internet is going to be amused by my continued attempts to mangle the English language. 😛

When a former post steps on your own toes…

I was looking for a particular post, hoping to inspire myself. And, well, I found this. I have a confession. I have been missing church a lot. And at first, it was all totally legit. I was often sick and worn out from work. And Sundays are still a huge struggle. But Wednesdays are now more of skipping out of a habit than the other reasons. And I am ashamed of myself.

I need to get off my lazy flank and start going again. Because, as a number of my friends told me, repentance is not feeling bad for what I am doing wrong, it is admitting to them and striving to make them right again. To correct what you are, let’s call it what it really is, sinning in and turn it around.
NOw I won’t say that you got to start being perfect again or give up. That is also not what repentance is about. But it is making the effort. And keep making the effort until the sin no longer has any power over you. And I am going to start making an effort with this post. As my confession.

The post that I posted earlier is below this. With an MLP vid to boot. ^_^


What happens when you isolate yourself from the Church? It doesn’t end well….Sin and strange ideas thrive with too much isolation and resentment….🤪 Sometimes the craziest ideas take root when you think you are your best spiritual self, and you have no idea. And sometimes that little bit of resentment you have against a brother or sister turns into something huge and monstrous.
Or if you visit a friend who been missing from Church for a while and see them…..well, struggling. The reaction…it is so real!😱
Have the courage to confront sin head on. And the one that is being disciplined🤔, have the humility to listen and take the advice…and sometimes the shove back to sanity… heart!💖


Or am I the only one that thinks this?



Well, I wrote this and posted it on facebook. So here I am posting it here AND posting it on facebook again!

I started a Patreon! Woo Hoo! I have been bouncing between the want to jump in there and do it, and wondering just why I would do this? I mean do I even have anything worth sharing? Would I be able to get anyone interested in what I have to say?

Part of me wants to say no. But that part is the part of me that would delete every word I ever wrote, crumble every drawing I ever make, and throw my crafts away. And just forget about learning any skills. What skills? That part of me would easily tell me I have no learning ability and no skills. It is a huge battle sometimes just to get out of bed, smile or otherwise.

But thankfully that is not all me. There is another part of me that gets excited when the muse whispers in my ear. Who wants to dive in a new project the way that Scrooge dives in a money safe. This far more child-like free spirit of a sprite would run to everyone she loves and who loves her and held out her work with a wistful gaze and a charming smile. “Is it good?” She would ask. “I made it for you!”

Now my more critical side is vital. Without him, I would probably create junk and think it good. But without the other side to show me my potential, not to mention the friends I have to remind me that I am beloved and have talent, then I would never create a thing. And do you think I would keep posting on my blog? Fat chance! I mean, no offense to those who do read my blog, but I don’t think I get nearly the numbers that would keep me going if I just in it for fame or cash.

This blog is like my art and fanfiction. It is an act of love. And I will continue to type away because I want others to see what I am passionate about. And to know that they are worth it too. I wouldn’t want to share with you unless I feel that you as readers are totally worth the effort to connect with. And while I do want a larger readership, I am very much grateful for the ones that I got.

Now how about posting more? Ehhhh…….working on it. 😉

An example of my way of learning

I thought I would share this to give you some idea of how I learn and think. To give you a taste of my chaos, as it were.
These are notes I made from an online video, a German class that was online, and an online video on writing. Yeah, it is pretty all over the place. But the older I get, the more I realize that I am this way. And to make myself more logical would be a huge disservice to how I really learn.

I almost deleted this as soon as I put it up because it felt silly. But I pushed through. I hope you enjoy reading my notes.


What are the differences between the rich and the poor?

The rich pay themselves first. The Godly pays God first, and themselves second. But still, the main point remains.

The rich base their decisions on long-term rewards rather than instant gratification.

Rich people have several sources of income

rich people continually invest in themselves

the rich never blame but take full responsibility for their failures,

the rich don’t sleep in.

the rich have a clear vision or purpose

the rich make progress before entertainment

I recently started teaching myself, German. I found myself preferring to read out the words first, and sounding them out loud to myself. I took a few notes now and then to try to help build vocab in my head. But then I lost steam and started skipping. I know this was a mistake now.

Why did you decide to be a student, and what do you hope to gain from your studies?

Well, I love to learn for its own sake to begin with. And now that I am forty, I feel like I really need to dig in and learn as much as I can to better myself and be more employable and useful. I don’t have the energy of youth anymore so must use my mind to keep ahead. Besides learning is fun for its own sake. ^_^

write a million words, the very best you can. Then throw it away and turn your back on that work. Only then do you really began.

die banana ist gelp. the banana is yellow