It is often hard to deal with problems that come from outside of your control. It is harder to deal with failure caused by your faults and sins. It is hardest to deal with when both conspired to make a perfect storm of a bad week. This last week had been like that. I have failed and have failed epically.
I should not have spent so much time writing when I should have been doing more important things. I should not have spent time playing when I was stressed, even though I was stressed. I should have pushed through. If I had, I would have been pleased and proud, not miserable and ashamed. Please, God. Grant me the victory over my lack of self-control!